Lost (Music)

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~ Ryan ~

I sighed as I walked Silva down the trail, the big black horse swished his tail and snorted whipping his head. I pulled the reins back and held his head down, "Not today bud." I said keeping him at a walk he sighed and walked evenly with a snort. As soon as I felt that Silva was content walking along I let my mind wonder back to the other day with Kesha. "You are such an idiot!" I snapped at myself shaking my head, I had went there to talk with her make things right but like I always did I screwed up! I got into a fight with her and probably made it so I could never get close to her again not with that other guy around anyway. I groaned and kicked Silva into a trot and thought about it a little more. I was trying to be civil to her but when I heard her and seen her with that other guy something in me changed and I got angry. I think what it was was the fact that he didn't sound like he came from a background like us, Kesha's dad had abused her and her sister and my life hadn't been that much better either. When we had met something clicked we understood each other, we never pushed when the other said they didn't want to talk we were just there for each other. "How could I have been so freaking stupid!" I snapped at myself, I was annoyed at myself for hurting others and hated myself for hurting Kesha so much. She was right I had lied to her and cheated on her, as well as cheated her. I pulled Silva up and got a kick out of him because I pulled to sharply for him. "Sorry." I said to him giving his neck a pat, the big black horse snorted and walked on calmly. I knew I had done wrong by Kesha and I wanted to make it right but by now she would never even let me get within' eighty feet of her without killing me. I tried to tell myself that I was better then I was back in the city but now I had my doubts. "Whoa." I said and Silva stopped and stood still in the trail, his tall thick build shining in the morning light.

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I smiled to myself as I came down the trail cantering on Indie. Getting away from everyone and anything else was the best feeling ever to me. Indie snorted and sslowed to a trot, then a walk, without me asking. "What are you-?" Indie stopped and didn't move, I groaned. Another horse was probably nearby. I turned Indie in a few circles before asking to walk on down the trail. I thought back to my old home and how all of my okd friends were doing. They had kind of stopped talking to me but it didn't bother me much, I knew it would happen eventually. My stomach churned though, I wondered who was there to comfort them when they were upset or depressed. That use to be my "role" at home, miss sunshine. I sighed and patted Indie, shrugging off my old home. It didn't bother me at all, I just got curious. Indie started to prance and I pulled back on the reins. Up ahead I could see a guy riding a big black horse. I sighed, I didn't think anyone else would be out here in the morning. He looked upset or mad, probably both. I was uncertain and didn't know what to say or do, so I kept Indie quiet and walked behind for a bit, then he stopped and I started to turn Indie around. I felt bad though and turned Indie to face the other rider. "A-are you okay?" I almost blurted and wanted to take it back as soon as it came out of my mouth, I should have just turned around and went back to the barn with Indie and check on Key. I looked down and ruffle Indie's mane, I didn't know what to do.

(ha sorry it kinda sucks )

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(nah... it did not suck He may be kinda rude )

I was sitting in thought not noticing anything around me, Silva snorted and whipped his head sidestepping nervously. I looked over my shoulder and groaned when I saw another person riding up, I was both annoyed and releaved cause I was lost. When the girl spoke to me Silva screamed/neighed and kicked, I was glade that he had kicked away from the girl and not at her and her horse. I spun him in a circle and he shyed away from her a little bit. He was always timid when it came to others, "shh.... its okay boy." I said patting his neck and looking up to the girl. "No I'm not." I said bluntly I wasn't trying to be rude but I was mad at myself and that meant I would take it out on others, I groaned and held the reins down on Silva as he tried to shy away again. "Easy boy its okay." I said trying to calm the seventeen hand stallion, he whipped his head and kicked again. Then he pinned his ears and pulled his head at the other horse. I groaned and corrects him and his ears went back up and he kicked again. I looked at the girl and sighed. "Sorry both our behavior, he won't actually bite or kick your horse he's just... Well nervous around others so sorry." I said trying to keep the better part of my attention on Silva and not the girl.

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(Ha it felt like it did, I was mostly rambling with it trying to make it long xP Haha okay )

I bit my lip, now I really wished I hadn't said anything at all. I could hear his groan from here. Indie and I both sat and just watched as the horse kicked out, Indie didn't even flinch. He was getting use to Key being a butthole all the time. I had gotten hurt by horses and the kick wasn't even near us, I kept Indie where he was. I bit my lip again and didn't really know what to say so instead I shrugged and said "sorry" as politely as I could. HE came off as a little rude and it irritated me, but he definitely didn't look okay. Indie just turned his head and pinned his ears back a bit when the horse pulled his head towards Indie. I sighed realizing I had been holding my breath. I eyed the other horse, then averted my gaze realizing it would probably just aggravate it more. I shrugged and looked up to the guy. "It's fine, I don't really care." I realized it probably sounded rude and opened my mouth to say something else, but closed it and bit my tongue so I wouldn't speak. I didn't want to make them mad or anything. "I can leave or... something?" I spoke, it sounded more like a question then a suggestion. Indie shook out his mane and nearly closed his eyes, dozing off.

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I looked up at the girl and wasn't sure who I was more annoyed with her saying sorry or myself for being annoyed in the first place. I sighed and calmed Silva down, but he still looked at the other horse and rider like they were some big evil monster that was going to eat him. "Easy boy their not gonna eat you." I said patting his neck, he sighed and whipped his head still watching the others like they were monsters. I glanced at her and frowned clenching my jaw and letting it go, today was not the day to annoy me even though the smart part was nagging that she hadn't meant no harm and was just saying it was fine. "Wait, ya don't have to go just because I don't have any manners. And besides you probably know where they heck we are cause I don't and I don't think Silva likes the idea of sleeping in the woods tonight." I said, I didn't mind it if I hadn't found my way out, I was cool with it there was nothing wrong with sleeping in the forest to me, better then an alley.

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He was talking to his horse and I circled Indie, then eventually started to turn around when he said I didn't have to go. It kind of annoyed me, of course I didn't have to go if I didn't want to, but he was upset and I ignored it. I shrugged. "Im sure you have manners youre just obviously ticked at something, I get it. So... Want to head back right now?" I felt a bit awkward and messed with Indie's mane, running my fingers through it then straightening it out again. He bobbed his head and huffed, he hated when I messed with his mane but it was the easiest way for me to calm myself down when I was nervous, scared, or whatever. I stopped touching his mane. His horse was pretty scared of us, and I felt bad, but I would feel bad if I left. I had to help the guy and his horse back. I mostly cared about the horse getting out safely, but I didn't say anything. I wanted to ask the guy what was werong, but I had learned long ago not to bug people about it when they were upset about something, the best thing to do was get their mind off of it. It seemed like the guy needed it, I was pretty sure he ended up lost cause he was focus in what was bothering him so much.

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I sighed and looked to her, "no I pretty much never have manners and yes I'm mad at something. But yeah anyway I would like to get out of these woods, Silva has had a long day today." I said shaking my head at the shy stallion under me, he was snorting and huffing at the other horse and rider getting excited and scared at the same time. "Silva also thinks your gonna eat him cause he came from a very bad home." I said patting the giant stallions neck, he snorted and sidestepped getting upset. I took a deep breath and tried to use the control I had learned while fighting in the under ground fights I used to do, it worked a little bit and me and Silva both relaxed a little. "Where do you go to school? And where are we?" I asked looking around hating that I had to ask her where we were. I looked around hating he feeling of helplessness building in my chest, I sighed and looked to the girl actually studying her a moment, she wasn't like me that I could tell by her behavior, she wasn't snappy and her eyes didn't hide true pain that I could see anyway. So if she was like me and Kesha she could hide it good. I blinked and decided to push Kesha out of my mind and try to be my normal self which would make me very annoying but not mean.

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I almost smiled but made myself keep a straight face when he said he almost never had manners. I shrugged. "That's okay. Let's go," I said keeping Indie at a walk. He snorted, he was obviously bored but I didn't want to go at anymore than a trot if the guy didn't even know where we were, and his stallion was pretty skittish too. H flicked an ear back to the stallion, probably thinking it was crazy and wierd, just like Key. I ducked my head a little, feeling a little upset. When I was little I use to cry when the horses started nipping at eachother, I hated the thought of a horse being that scared because of stuff that has happened to it. I didn't say anything about the "bad home", I didn't want to bring it up. I was so lucky, and I knew it. Riding since I was five and living at a show jumping barn, I didn't tell people about it though because they would think I was snobby and got everything I wanted. Not true. I especially didn't tell people like this guy, who obviously wasn't so lucky. I would hate myself and people like him would hate me if I told them. I smiled at the guy happily. "Use to be Homeschooled. Never been to a real school, until I moved to WWA" I like and disliked being homeschooled, it was okay but I didn't meet people alot that I didn't show against or train with. I looked around. "I wouldn't be able to tell you exactly but we're not too far away from the barn. half an hour to get back, at the most. It all depends on how the horses act coming back, sometimes Indie gets excited," I almost laughed when I added Indie getting excited. Unless we were jumping he was so calm and bored most of the time, and he looked half asleep now. I thought back to at the show jumping barn. It was fun but always competitive. I had only just came to WWA but so far I liked it, maybe even better than the show jumping barn. I still had to meet my room mate and go up to my room, but riding Indie was the only thing I had wanted to do when I got here.

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I took a deep breath and let it out slowly hoping it would help to calm Silva down. I clicked my tongue and had Silva follow after the other horse. Silva pricked his ears and followed them acting a little more brave right now. I sighed and relaxed in my seat letting him catch up with the other horse and rider, I sat there a moment lost in my own thoughts and lightly glanced over the girl, she wasn't bad looking and I had a habit of looking every girl up and down which I was trying to avoid doing right now, cause well for one I didn't really care what people looked like around me, I nodded her when she said we were a little ways away from the stable. I felt a ghost of a smile come onto my face when she said she had been home schooled. "I meant what riding school in the first place." I said with a little hint of humor in my voice. I sighed and looked around feeling a little better and because I wasn't as stressed out neither was Silva. The big black stallion had relaxed a lot and wasn't quiet as scared of the horse and rider. "Did you say WWA? As in Whispering Wolves Academy?" I groaned thinking that was where Kesha was, hopefully she wouldn't be around so I could just get directions and get the heck outta there.

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I heard the guy click his tongue to his horse to get him to follow me and Indie. Indie flickered an ear back but still looked half asleep. I sighed happily and looked around, lost in thought. I barely noticed the guy and his stallion there. Indie snorted and pricked his ears forward, I figured he had just see or heard an animal or something. I patted him and he kept on walking, still looking as bored as ever. Once we got this guy back I really wanted to jump a course or take him to the cross country field, I nearly smiled just thinking about it. I almost jumped hearing the guy's voice again, I had almost forgotten he was there daydreaming about going over the cross country course when we got back. I blushed a little and looked forward, then kind of shrugged to myself. "Well I was just trying to make conversation, I guess..." I said defensively, but I had to force myself not to laugh at myself. I wondered where he had gone to school before wherever he was at now, or if he had even gone to school. I shut those thoughts out, I didn't know anything about the guy, and just because he said his horse came from a bad life didn't mean he did. I frowned when he groaned because I said Whispering Wolves was where I went. I looked at him questioningly. "I know the way to Starry Skys too if you would rather me take you there, it's just a bit further but whatever," I offered. Obviously whatever was bugging him so much was at Whispering Wolves.

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I looked to her and thought a moment and nodded. "Yeah I can see just trying to make conversation, I have never really cared for conversation." I said with a little bit a smile and a joking voice. I thought over what she said but didn't answer right away, I wasn't sure how ot answer I didn't want to appear like I was helpless and needed a guide to take me back to my own stable but I also wanted to make sure that I didn't have to go back to WWA and face Kesha again cause that would just be asking for trouble all together. So finally I looked to her and said, "if you want since you go to WWA when were almost there you can just give me directions on to get to SS and that way you don't have to go out of your way to help some one you don't even know." I said thinking that that might work out the best.

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I smiled and shrugged to the guy. I could see him thinking for a moment and fiddled around with Indie's mane. Was he gonna tell me why he was so upset? No. He wouldn't, atleast I didn't think. I frowned a bit when he answered. I was just someone giving him directions, He just wanted out and I would never see him again. Should I even try being his friend? I took a deep breath and kept going on the trail to Whispering Wolves, it would probably be quicker this way anyways. I looked to the guy questioningly for a seocnd and almost accidentally stopped Indie. Indie snorted and kept on walking, he was so good. "how did you get here in the first place? Im pretty sure I saw you come from Whispering Wolves?" I asked him. It was wierd he didnt go to WWA and he came from there, then got lost when he obviously had to get there somehow. I sighed and shook my head, I didn't really care. By the way he talked I shouldnt care, he would be gone in less than half an hour and it wouldnt matter, I almost thought he would be my friend. I didn't even know his name yet. I almost laughed at myself for being so stupid then, but just smiled to myself and kept quiet.

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I shrugged and kept walking Silva. I thought a moment and thought nothing of saying. "Not this time no I didn't come from there, I was there a few days ago but today I just got lost on a trail cause well I was fumming over an argument I had with my ex at Whispering Wolves so I don't want to run into her again." I said simply it was nothing for me to be honest about the horrible parts of my life but it was the good parts that I never let anyone see or the deep parts inside of me, I had never even let Kesha in all the way just made her think I had and that hadn't been fair of me I looked down at Silva's neck nad tried to tell myself I was better now better then I used to be back then. "And I got here cause I wasn't watching or paying attention to where I was going." I said with a sheepish smile.

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I shrugged and searched for something to say, but I couldn't think of anything to say really. I simply shrugged and said,"oh." We were almost to Whispering Wolves now, and Indie perked up a bit, walking faster. I slowed him down back to his normal, even pace and he snorted and threw his head, a bit frustrated that I had made him slow. I usually let him gallop when we got this close, so I was sure he was pretty frustrated. I smiled at the guy's last comment. "I'm gonna go ahead and pretend I don't do that all the time," I said patting Indie. It was usually Indie that found the way back, not me.

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I gave a the smallest hint of a smile and looked to her, I nodded and simply just didn't say anything more. As we walked I could tell that we were getting closer to the stable just by the way the girls horse was acting, no horse would be all calm and then change instantly on the way back to the stable that and Silva had his ears pricked straight forward looking ahead so he must have been hearing other horses up ahead. He snorted and slightly side stepped but when I corrected him he did as told and went back to a walk like he had been this entire ride. I almost smiled and laughed at what she said to me, but I still really didn't feel like saying anything not right now anyway. I glanced at the girl and thought that she was mostly just trying to make conversation and was probably uncomfortable around a strange guy she had met in the woods, who was also lost. I sighed and kept my eyes on my horses neck dreading even coming onto campus of Kesha's school.

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Indie whinnied, we were really close to the barn now, and another horse neighed back. Indie trotted ahead and I squeezed the reins, coaxing him back to a walk. I looked back to the guy and thought for a moment. "Well when we get out of the woods, you can go down the driveway, to the left, and take another left when you see the rolling hills and stuff. Or you can take another trail I can show you, it's to the right of the boarder's barn," I said after thinking about the times I had been to Starry Skys. I could tell he didn't want to be near or at WWA for very long, so I would make this quick as possible. Ahead you could see a pasture, we were almost home.

(sorry shortish )

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Silva pricked his ears and snorted when the other horse whinnied and then he half bucked when one replied to the girls horse, I hardly even noticed him doing so. I watched the horse trot ahead and the girl coax him back down to a walk, I bit my lip and thought a moment. I wanted out of there as soon as I could but there was no way Silva was gonna walk on the road, he would lose his mind. I shook my head and said, "There is no way Silva is gonna walk next to or on a road, he would lose his mind if a care passed." I shook my head knowing the jittery stallion wouldn't spook if he saw it coming but he didn't see it coming he would get scared. I sighed no matter how much work I put into him he was still shy and took time to warm up to new people, but at least he was just barely keeping his distant away from the girl, which was weird cause well he never warmed up that fast. I looked to her and thought a moment, "If you wouldn't mind could you help me find my way back to Starry Skys?" I asked looking back ahead as we came around to the front of the stables and started looking for Kesha.

(Itta was fine Heys I got a little idea We shouldn't have them find out each others names till like she leaves SS I don't know where that idea came from I'm just bored!)

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(Hahah okay good(: And yeah I was planning like them not finding out eachother's names if he went to SS alone but since shes guiding him there then yess(: )

I noticed the guy's horse give a little buck when the other horse neighed back, but the guy just barely seemed to notice it. I looked ahead as we came out of the woods and came around to the front of the stables, I was planning to take Indie on the cross country course and go over it once or twice then call it a day. The guy talked again and I listened, then nodded. "Yeah, Indie could probably go on the road but I wouldn't risk it, so smart choice," I said with a smile. I wondered to myself if the stallion was just young or something, or if he had really had that bad of a past that he was so alert and jittery like that. I blocked out the thoughts, I had to stop thinking into the guy and the stallion's life. I didn't and shouldn't care. He could go on the trail back home, I could take Indie over the cross country course, and then be done. Go back to my dorm and do whatever I wanted, and didn't ever have to even think of the guy again. I didn't not like the guy, he just seemed to block people out and not really like anyone else. Me, anyways. His voice broke into my thoughts and I smiled to myself, of course when I tried to stop caring about him and his horse. I just wished he would talk more or be friendlier or something. I nodded my head to him. "Sure, I kind of like visiting Starry Skys anyway, and... Are you looking for someone?" I noticed him looking around and looked around myself, but no one and nothing was within sight, except for a few people in the boarder barn. I turned Indie right and he seemed to know we were going on another trail. He loved trail rides, but not when we just walked.

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I kept my eyes darting around and then back to Silva to make sure that he didn't get scared of anything. He was a little more tense cause I was more on edge being back at this stable. I really didn't want to be here and didn't even know how I had ended up on this trail in the first place. Silva snorted and bobbed his head a little more relaxed then before but enough so that I would let him trot or move out of a walk, I glanced up at her and smiled a small smile. "Yeah Silva would be fine unless he didn't see a car coming or something like that." I said patting the big stallions neck, he snorted and whipped his head again seeming to finally get used to her being near him which pretty much confused me cause the only other person he had ever let close to him besides me was Kesha. But even she had to work at it a long time, he already seemed to be liking this girl well when I was riding him anyway. As we turned and started for the other trail Silva pricked his ears and snorted swishing his tail and that meant... Yup there it was the kick of his hind leg, he always kicked out one leg when he was relaxed or calming down. What can I say my horses were weird. I saw a few people heading to the arenas and a few others coming and going onto the trails but none were Kesha and I felt myself relax into my saddle. I looked to her quickly and shook my head, "no one of importance just trying to avoid someone." I said looking around more making sure that Kesha was no where in sight and so far she wasn't and I was thankful for that. As we rode onto the new trail and they were all behind us I felt Silva relax and walk smoothly and calmly, he still looked at the other two like they might bite him but he wasn't spazzing out anymore so I let my reins drop and let him pick up a slow trot.

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I watched The guy and silva for awhile making sure nothing happened, his horse did seem to be relaxing a bit though. I nodded to him about what he said about Silva being alright unless he didnt see a car coming. Indie would prolly be okay anyway, I seriously wasn't going to risk it though. Especially on the side of the road with alot of cars, accidents could happen, cause by the horse or the car. I smiled when I looked back and saw Silva kick out his hind leg, but he seemed to relax a whole lot more after that, it made me smile. I looked back again, and noticed the guy watching the people on the trails, going to the arena, and the people in the barn. None of them seemed to be the right person though. I whipped my head back around, realizing how it would look if he caught me and noticed I kept looking back at him. I shrugged when he said he was just avoiding someone and had the urge to ask who, but I just shrugged a second time and nodded "okay," I said. There was really nothing else to say and I was happy when he let his horse go into a slow trot, I barely nudged Indie and he sped up to a trot. He seemed happier at the trot and I smiled and reached down to pat him. I knew he wanted to go faster but I wasn't sure if the stallion should canter on the trail yet, and kept him at the same steady pace.

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I kept looking around keeping my eyes pealed for Kesha or the guy she had been with, I didn't want have another fight with her anytime soon. As I looked around I let my mind slip and slide into the other day at the stable and what I had been doing here in the first place. I had come here to tell Kesha that I was sorry for using her when we had first met and betraying the trust she had givin' me, that I was sorry that we stopped being friends because I was a stupid jerk that hadn't learned my lesson yet and that now I was better. I had even planed on what to tell her, I was gonna say. "Kesha I'm sorry for everything I put you through and I don't expect you to forgive me but I want you to know that I am really sorry and I understand if you never want to see my face again but I just had to say that I'm sorry." And now I had blown that chance of ever even getting to say that to her and that made me angry at myself. Why had I been such a jerk? And why in the hell had I freaked out on her like I had, she hadn't deserved that and I felt like punching myself in the head for the way I had behaved. But I knew pretty much what had really set me off, it was the need to fight back against being yelled at and Kesha had yelled it was just a instinct to me now there was nothing I could do cause fighting was I had had to do my entire life to survive. But none the less I was still mad at myself for being so mean.
I caught the girl looking at me and had to keep from smiling to myself, she wasn't bad looking but I wasn't interested in anything at the moment I needed to work things out with Robby and Kesha first and maybe try to get back on Lucy's good side again. I sighed and let my mind stay here where the horses and the other rider was, Silva whipped his black head and asked to go faster, I let his reins looser a little bit and he took up a slow canter. Once Silva started going faster then a canter he would buck but in a canter he almost never even spooked, again my horses are weird animals.

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I trotted Indie on in an awkward silence, or atleast awkward for me. I wanted to turn and see what the guy was doing now and why he was being so quiet, but I was worried he had seen me the first few times. I bit my tongue so I wouldnt blurt out something totally stupid, but the silence was killing me. All I could hear were the hoofbeats of the horses and the sound of other animals and things in the woods. It was like Indie could feel my restlessness, he whipped his head and snorted. I patted him but didn't say anything. The guy was probably lost in thought or something. I was about to say " So uh, how's life?" but I figured that today wasn't a very good day to ask him that question. I racked my mind for something, anything, to say, but couldn't find anything to say. I sighed, hoping he would say something or the horses would do something or anything at all would happen. Starry Skys didn't take too long to get to, I was hoping we wouldn't get there and still have not said anything.

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I sighed and sat back in my saddle and Silva slowed down to a fast trot and since he hadn't seen this trail before he finally slowed to a fast walk seeming to search his surrounding with his ears pricked forward with a bright look in his eyes. I sighed and relaxed in my saddle resting my left hand on my teaigh and thinking of something to say to the girl, I could feel the awkward silence growing but I didn't really know what to say to feel that gap that wouldn't be a little rude, so I kept quiet for a moment and let my thoughts run around with what to say but nothing came to my mind. I sighed and looked over to her and said in a little bit of a cold tone. "So how long you been around here?" I asked, I had only been around a little under a month and it was the only thing I could think of to say in this weird silence moment. Silva snorted looking around alertly and acting a lot more relaxed.

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I had begun to hold my breath, I could feel the silence just getting worse and worse and it drove me insane. I finally sighed when he spoke and thought for a moment. "Not that long really, probably only like a week or two. I haven't even moved into my dorm yet, I drive here every morning until today, after the ride I'm moving into my dorm finally," I said with a crooked smile. I was happy I got to move into my dorm finally, so far all I had been doing were trail rides with Indie. I was beginning to think we had gone on pretty much every trail within ten miles of here, but I knew that wasn't even close to true. I didn't have time to do other stuff around here so far, I had only been at this riding academy for awhile now but I had lived in the same area pretty much my whole life. I felt bad again for a moment. Apparently this guy had come from a really bad past, and the worse things that have ever happened to me were having a dog that died and loosing horses, whether they get sold or I stop riding them. I bit my lip and turned my head to face straight forward.

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I nodded and pondered what she had said for a moment trying to think of an easy response to it. I let myself think of my horses for a minute and my mind instantly traveled to Mayhem that horse was nutter then any I'd seen before but in a good way cause he had a way of making you laugh when ever you saw him, he was just so goofy and silly all the time. Then there was Eddie that horse was crazy but you'd never know it til the last possible second, hence why I had named the Silent Assassin. I smiled with the thoughts of my horses, it wasn't a big smile just a little one but a happy one. I glanced at her and nodded. "I have been here for a bout three weeks, its okay so far at least my horses seem happier then they did before." I said giving Silva a pat on his shiny black neck. I smiled to myself and thought about all the times I had with Kesha and Silva, she always thought she knew him better then I did but then again she probably did know him better she was working in the rescue program with him when I found him and her, but still almost the instant he saw me he was my horse and mine only. I inhaled deeply, loving the way the scents hit me and the early held promise that no longer meant anything to me but for now I could pretend it did.

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Indie snorted and whipped his head a bit, makiing me smile. I was pretty sure this was his favorite trail, he always seemed more lively on this trail. I risked looking back one more time, the guy seemed to be thinking. I looked forward again and bit my lip at what he said. His horses seemed to be happier than they were before. I bit my lip, but nodded to the guy. "That's good, atleast you know you made the right choice, for them and hopefully you," I said. If he had come from a bad place, this might have actually been his only decision. I stopped thinking about it and thought about Indie beneath me, and listened to the sound of his hooves hitting the ground.

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I shrugged and let Silva keep on speed walking cause well he didn't want to stop looking at everything, he was very worried and a little couriess about his new surroundings. I nodded and glanced at her and said. "Yeah the stable where they were before didn't have the best places to take care of them, they tried but couldn't afford all the horses even with boarders so I moved mine out here." I looked around a little bit and added. "Yeah good choice for them but maybe not for me." I said with a shrug not really caring that much anymore but still I thought of back to being on the run from the state it was always my luck to get thrown into the foster homes where people were abused and most took it out on me and I had the scars to prove it. So I learned to fight and to hide in the shadows where no one saw me and as soon as I was eighteen I bailed. I met Kesha when she had just turned fourteen and I had turned seventeen, her birthday was only a couple months after mine. We didn't know each other long before we started dating, we broke it off about a half a year before she moved not long after she turned fifteen. I shook myself out of the past and looked to the girl I was riding with, she seemed to be jumping around questions, I knew she wanted to ask them cause evceryone spoke with that tone when they were dying to say. "Was your life awful?" Or something like that anyway. "If you have something to say just say it." I said it without snapping, without emotion and without any care at all, my voice just hard and cold and empty.

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I nodded to the guy. I had seen alot of barns like that, they just couldnt care for all of the horses. I felt a little bad for the people, but it ticked me off. The people would eventually have to stop pretending they could afford and take care of the horses and admit it. Where would the horses end up? If they were lucky they would have the chance of going to an auction first. I stopped thinking about it so much cause it pretty much made me teary-eyed, and listened to the guy. I nodded to the guy, he sounded like he feeled pretty sorry for himself. That bothered me a bit too, he had to stop acting like that and move on. A person's history didn't mean too much to me, atkeast definitely not as much as a horse's history. A person could easily move on and choose to fix it, we could stand up for ourselves. I almost wanted to say my thoughts aloud, but decided not to. I simply shrugged. When he told me to say what I wanted to say, I thought for a moment. Indie seemed to understand and pricked one ear toward me, like waiting for my next words. Yeah, I was curious about his life, but I mostly cared about the horse's life. He probably did have a bad past, and he probably did feel sorry for himself. I didn't get why he just forgot about it and moved on though. And why he seemed so... I didn't even know. Not rude, not unfriendly, he just... I couldn't even explain. I didn't even think about it before I blurted out, "Do you not like people or something?" It almost sounded rude or snappy or something, and I felt bad for it. And at the same time I almost laughed, because it probably wasn't what he was expecting. Indie snorted out of amusement and I coughed to cover up how snappy I had sounded.

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I glanced at the girl and almost felt a smile twitch at the corners of my mouth, I could tell there were a lot of things swimming around in head she didn't have a good poker face and where I came from that was everything being able to read others. I didn't expect her to understand my statemeant about this maybe not being the right desion for me, I had wanted a fresh start with a clean slate with Kesha. I mean I didn't want her back but I wanted her to know there was a time when I really did care for her and that would never change that there would always be a place for her that was very near and dear to me. But instead I had made everything worse for us. I almost smiled at the thoughts of us together back then, she would never got faster then a trot on a horse and would never ride anything but her sisters horse Apollo she loved that horse so much, I smiled to myself this time thinking of the first time she had ever trotted that old gelding, her face beamed with so much pride it still made me happy to think about and the first time Silva let me on his back I never thought that Kesha could look more proud of someone then she did of me that day. I tried to push the thoughts out of my head cause even though they were happy and brought a faint smile to my lips they also brought pain and regret for the things I had said to her just a few days ago. I looked up and over the girl and smiled a little bit. "Yes and no. I prefer to be on my own, but I don't mind company from time to time. But in a nutshell yeah I don't like people they betray you to quickly, so I like my horses they never lie, steal, cheat or betray me." I said simply knowing that probably wasn't the answer she had been expecting.

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The guy seemed to be lost in thought for awhile and I thought of all the other questions buzzing around in my head. I didn't want to ask many of them, but there were alot of questions I couldnt get out of my head and that I really wanted to ask him. I played with the reins until Indie snorted and threw his head because I had pulled back to hard. I unknotted the knot I had made in the reins and waited until the guy finally answered my question. He smiled a bit before he answered. I listened to what he said and before I knew it the words "I wouldn't betray you" came flying from my mouth. I turned red and had the urge to smack myself. It didn't have any real special meaning when I sad it, but it was true. I tried to think of some way I could reverse what I had said in my head. "Well, like, if we were friends, or we ever talked after this, which we probably wont, or if..... something," I trailed off. I was fumbling with the words I was trying to say and had the urge to slap myself because of how stupid I was being. I was just being nice or something, taking the guy back to starry skys. I tried to think of another question to cover up what had just happened but this time none came to mind.